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For a few seconds after the news about Josiah had been made known to them, no one could speak. A heavy silence descended upon all of them as they struggled in their own way to deal with the terrible news. The words felt almost unreal as it seeped into their bones and made its denial impossible once it intermingled with blood and become apart of them. Typically it was Nathan who came to life first, his imperative to help Buck overriding his shock. His healer's instincts kicked in immediately as he hurried to them. Buck was not quite unconscious but he was getting there. The stain of crimson spreading from his collar in a downward descent indicated that Nathan had not much time. Nathan's actions breathed life to the others and as Nathan reached Buck, Mary emerged from the adjoining room to investigate the commotion.
"How bad is it?" Chris asked Nathan as the healer made a quick examination of the bite mark on Buck's neck as he and JD brushed past the others.
"I'm not sure," Nathan responded as Mary quickly vacated the small bedroom so that Nathan could treat Buck there. "I don't think his jugular's been punctured," he ventured a guess. "If it were, he would be dead by now."
"I manage to get that Darla woman off him," JD explained. "You know how Buck is around women, he couldn't bring himself to hurt her, not until it was too late."
Unfortunately, Chris did. If there were one thing that could be considered a blind spot in his normally capable old friend's psyche, it would be his reaction to women. Buck was a notorious womanizer because he adored women, in all shapes and forms. His upbringing in a bordello coupled with the fact that his mother, a working girl, had lavished shameless affection on him despite how he had come to her, had a great deal to do with his attitude to them. Buck did not believe women could be just as mean and conniving as men could. He often defended the bad behavior of many of the sex by claiming its cause was usually a life of abuse or some misfortune to which a man should attempt to make amends by kindness. Chris had lost count of how many time Buck had gotten into trouble because of that kind of thinking.
Like now.
Darla had chosen well when she approached Buck who no doubt would have fallen sway to her beauty, believing that there had to be some trace of humanity in her that would not harm he. Chris wondered if Buck had finally learnt his lesson when she sunk her fangs into his neck. Thinking about Buck's injury, his mind immediately settled on Josiah who was in an even worse situation. It was still several hours to daylight and more than enough time for the vampires to spirit him far enough away for them to never find him. Chris hesitated to use the word 'alive'.
"JD," Chris called out as the younger man disappeared into the room. "Once you're done with helping Nathan with Buck I want you to show us where they jumped you. We're going after them."
"You have no idea where they went," Giles spoke up.
"I can track them," Vin responded automatically as he went towards the door.
"In the dark?" Buffy asked with surprise.
"Done it before," the tracker said shortly.
"Giles, you and Tara stay here," Buffy turned to her Watcher and the young Wiccan. "Help Nathan with the big guy."
"What about you?" Giles asked.
"We're going with them," Buffy stated, giving Chris a look that defied him to say otherwise.
"So am I," Ezra replied with just as much conviction.
"No you aren't!" Buffy and Chris declared in unison before exchanging embarrassed glances at each other over having the same thought.
"You cannot expect me to stay here?" Ezra stared at them with incredulity. "You need all the help you can get!"
"We do," Chris did not bother to deny that. "However, right now, everything hinges on you staying alive. If you get killed out there," he glanced at Buffy, "she gets wiped out of existence and I rather that didn't happen when we're in the middle of a fight. Besides, the safest place for you to be right now is in here. They can't come in without an invite and someone's got to protect Buck and the others if they come back."
Ezra stared at him for a few seconds before speaking, "I am assuming you included that final portion so that I would not feel completely useless?"
"Never can get anything by you Ez," Chris retorted with a little smile, even though his mood was anything but humorous. "Come on let's get going." He ordered.
"Chris," Mary found her voice in the midst of all this discussion. The idea that he was going to face the creature she had seen at her door tonight, terrified Mary to no end. "Be careful," she said softly.
Of course there was nothing else she could say. She could not tell him not to go because he would never listen to her and even if she admitted how much it would hurt losing him, she would never force that burden upon him. His friends had breathed life into his wounded heart. To force him to choose between them and her was an injury she would never make him suffer. So she remained silent, allowing her few words to tell him all that was needed for now.
Chris saw it all in her eyes, what was spoken and unspoken between them. He nodded slightly in a show of understanding before turning away to Ezra. "Keep everyone safe Ezra."
"God speed Chris," Ezra returned and watched them leave with the hope that God was indeed watching.
"You can take Buck's horse," Chris told Buffy as they walked to the coral where the horses were presently hitched.
"You mean ride?" Buffy stammered.
Suddenly, everyone froze in their tracks and stared at the slayer.
"You can't ride?" Chris cried out in exasperation. How on earth did these people in the future get anywhere!
"I got led around on a pony once at a petting zoo," Buffy volunteered reluctantly only to hear the man in black uttering a litany of curses that made her blush.
"Its alright," Spike broke into the conversation before the gunslinger popped a vein. "She can ride with me."
"Thank Christ," Chris muttered and started walking again. The three lawmen were striding forward purposefully and Buffy did not doubt that Angelus might have reason to regret kidnapping on of their own. Chris, did not appear to be a man who took kindly to threats against to his friends and there was just enough edge to this dark mood that told that Buffy that when it overtook him, he could be especially savage. He reminded her a little of herself in that way and Buffy wondered whether or not Spike had got it wrong, that she was not related to Ezra but rather Chris, since his demeanor was so much like hers.
"You can ride?" Buffy asked quietly as she walked alongside of him. Buffy was too accustomed to seeing him in his black Desoto or the motorcycle he had acquired recently. It was difficult to picture a vampire who had a penchant for Billy Idol and the Sex Pistols astride a horse.
"I was born quite a few years before this time you know," he said as a matter of factly. "It was horses until the late 1900's."
"Just can't picture you on a horse that's all," Buffy remarked, supposing she did not know very much about who he had been when he was human. "I think of men on horses and I think of Prince Charming. You are so not Prince Charming."
"So you keep telling me," he said sarcastically, as if he needed to have his nose rubbed in it at just how unsuitable he was for her hand or her affections. "I suppose I shouldn't expect much better since I'm convenient."
With that Spike hastened his pace to catch up with the three men who were leaving them behind rapidly in their eagerness to reach their friend. Buffy paused a moment, startled that he had brought that up and the flippancy that she would normally have used to counter his acerbic remark did not surface. In its place, something else did and Buffy hated to admit that it felt uncomfortably like guilt. She felt guilty for having said that to him. She was suddenly reminded of how Parker had treated her. Parker had been her first lover after Angel had left Sunnydale. In her haste to find love with someone who was remotely normal, she missed all the signs of what kind of person he really was. Unfortunately, she learnt that lesson the hard way after spending the night with Parker only to have him discard her as if she was nothing. It was too Buffy's absolute horror that she realized that she was now treating Spike the same callousness.
As far as Buffy was concerned, her feelings for Spike were uncharted territory. When she thought about them, she usually found her weighing the positive and the negatives of having any kind of relationship with a vampire. It was not as if this was new to her. The same debate had raged on within her when Angel was in her life. However, Spike was not Angel. In some ways this was a good thing. It was good because if were he too much like Angel, she would only be using him as a replacement and even she had enough conscience to know that was wrong. The most basic difference was the fact that Angel as in possession of a soul and Spike did not.
At least she did not think he did but then the question of the soul these days was a matter of perspective. He loved her. She had no doubt of that. He had almost endured disembowelment by Glory to protect her and Dawn from the hell god and ensured that while she had been dead, Dawn had been safe. Could a demon without a soul love her as much as he had proven on countless occasions? Xander would argue that she would be a fool to love someone like Spike or even reciprocate the deep feelings he had for her. She did not believe that was true. Angel had been accused of far worse crimes than Spike could even begin to imagine and she had been able to forgive him. It could be said that Angel had a soul and should be forgiven but where love was concerned, Buffy had given much thought to the whole concept of late. Angel needed a soul to love her because as soon as he had lost it, Angelus had torn her life apart. Spike on the other hand loved her even though he did not have a soul and was far less wi lling to leave her. Everything about Spike was a contradiction and the more Buffy tried to wrap her mind around it, the less certain she became about how she felt.
Did she love him?
She did not know and that was the most honest answer she could give at the moment. She did know that he understood her like no one else did and that he loved the woman she was underneath the Slayer that dominated her life. Despite all the abuse she had hurled at him of late, particularly the comment about him being convenient which she had been too confused to know at the time had hurt him deeply, he still remained at her side, determined to help her and Dawn. And what about where they were now? According to Giles, the future without her had been a vampire Utopia. Spike did not even have the chip any more and yet he was doing everything to ensure its return by changing the events that saw her wiped out of existence.
Life was so much less complicated when he was trying to kill her.
The smell of animals reminded her of where she was and she blinked seeing the corral where the horse were kept. Chris, Vin and JD were already mounting their horses while Spike was staring at her expectantly.
"Come on Princess," he said sarcastically as he motioned her forward. "Prince Charming awaits."
Buffy's response was a scowl followed by a most unladylike gesture with her middle finger that crossed the language barrier more clearly than words could ever manage.
"Now is that any way for a lady to behave?" Spike teased.
"Drop dead, Spike." She snapped as he heaved her into the saddle.
"Too late," he grinned at her. "Been there, done that."
Josiah did not think it was possible to be hit that hard.
Most of the time, people who saw his bulk would usually think twice about making the effort. After all, who would want to provoke a stoutly built preacher with a hair trigger temper unless they really had to? It had been a long time since Josiah had been knocked out cold, so cold that he was only now regaining consciousness and it was to his utmost alarm that he realized that where he had lost consciousness, was not where he was waking up. Even as he opened his eyes to darkness, he felt his head swimming with vibrations of lingering pain. It did not help that the darkness was assaulting his senses with its pitch black intensity and the terrible musty smell that told him he was in a cellar of some sort. However, underlying that odor of dust was something else, something unspeakable. His mind latched onto the scent because during his preaching days he had attended more than his share of funerals. The inside of this room he was presently occupying smelled like a tomb.
The last thing that he remembered was hearing JD screaming for help because Buck whom at the time had left to take care of a little private had somehow run into trouble. Josiah did not know the specifics but he remembered running after JD who was off like a shot, despite the preacher's entreaties to slow down and wait for him. At the time, Josiah's primary concern in the warning was to ensure that the young man did not run headlong into something he could not handle. It did not occur to him that he ought to be concerned for his own welfare. As JD disappeared into the darkness, Josiah had suddenly found himself alone with only the sound of Buck's cries to act as beacon in the night. Since learning about vampires and the existence of the supernatural, Josiah had good reason to fear the darkness around him but he assumed that if there was any danger to be had, it would be directed towards the house where Ezra and the slayer were presently residing.
It never occurred to him that he was the intended target because he was alone.
Angelus appeared out of nowhere, like a shadow suddenly given life. The vampire was tall and well built. Had he been human, Josiah would have been slightly concerned at pitting himself against Angelus. However, he was not human and coupled with vampire strength, Josiah was soon shown how outmatched he was. The creature overcame him easily with a series of blows that left the preacher staggering. The last thing he remembered before waking up here was Angelus' leering face as the final strike connected with his jaw and then everything had gone black.
And continued to remain so.
He found that he was not bound and could move about freely. Pushing himself off the dusty floor, Josiah clawed the air around him to find support to help him move in his darkened surroundings. He put one tentative foot forward, reasoning that if he found a wall, then it would inevitably lead him to a door if he followed it. His first step yielded nothing in his way and he took his second and then a third, occasionally running into something that he was able to navigate around without tripping over or worse. Eventually he reached his objective and began the arduous journey of feeling his way to the door. He rather wondered why they had not tied him up, since it had to be academic that he would run as soon as he found the opportunity. Considering the danger to his immortal soul in their hands, it could not be any other way.
Josiah did not deny that he was afraid. Since this had all began, Josiah's faith in his God had strengthened a thousand fold because he now had incontrovertible proof of the Almighty's existence. Not many men were given that kind of assurance and though knowing God existed did little to change the present course of his life, it did give him comfort knowing that when he prayed, God was actually listening. It was not important that he received an answer because he was not so arrogant to think that God planned his day around Josiah's problems and also because Josiah preferred to find his own answers. Still, it was good to know that he was listening.
"You're making good progress there preacher," a voice suddenly filled the air and froze Josiah in his tracks.
Somehow, Josiah was not entirely surprised that there was someone in the room with him. He had questioned why he had not been tied up or restrained in anyway, he supposed now he knew. The vampire had been waiting quietly in the dark, having superior vision to see him without the use of any light and no need to take breath, maintaining his anonymity as he watched his prey and waited for him to wake up. For Josiah, being caught did not feel as bad as never having any chance of escape at all. The preacher let out a heavy sigh and remained where he was, seeing no need to continue but having no wish to return to the place he had been.
The strike of a match soon after flooded the room with light and Josiah found that he was indeed in a cellar. Unfortunately, the light showed him the smell of death that he had earlier identified came not from the walking undead in the room with him but rather what was left of the earlier occupants of the residence. Josiah closed his eyes and forced his revulsion away because that was the least of his troubles at the moment. Angelus sat on a chair, facing an empty one as he waited for Josiah to speak.
"What do you want?" The preacher finally asked.
"Lots of things," Angelus remarked with a smile. "The sun going on the world forever, a houseful of lusty wenches for the turning, the possibilities are endless but for now," he turned his dark eyes on Josiah. "I'd settle for information."
Josiah stared at him hard and replied softly, "you'll have to settle for something else. I don't have any."
"You don't have any?" Angelus laughed out loud as if finding his resistance amusing. "My father was a preacher back in Ireland, you know. Made my life a hell as boy growing up. He seemed to think that I ought to following in his path, made me suffer when I wouldn't. He told me that I would be damned for eternity. I guess he was right there but he kept telling me things anyway. He always seemed to have something to say. I find it hard to belive that any man of the cloth even when they're supposed to abandon the faith would have nothing to say."
"Believe it," Josiah retorted. "I'm not telling you anything."
"I'm sorry to hear that preacher," Angelus replied coldly. "This relationship might have ended amicably."
"How amicably would it have ended? I doubt you were going to let me go," Josiah answered trying to control his fear, telling himself that he had done much in his life for which penance was owed. It appeared that he might be accounting himself before God sooner than he liked. However, if it meant saving his friends from this monster, he could accept it.
"No I wasn't," Angelus replied with a smile. "That's still something left over from my father that keeps me from lying to a man of God. I was going to kill you but how you die is entirely up to you. It can be quick or it can be slow and do not doubt me when I say that I have had an exceptionally long time to sharpen my skill in how slow it can be."
Josiah suppressed the tendril of fear that was wrapping itself around his spine and faced Angelus, determined that he would not give into this creature and betray his friends. "Then I suppose we better get started."
Frankly Buffy was amazed that there was any trail to follow at all as they rode into the night. Dawn was only a few hours away and if they did not find the preacher soon, Spike would have to turn back before the sunlight killed him. The urgency of more than just that was pressing down on them however, the possibility that Josiah could be lost to them in a way worse than death preyed heavily upon all their minds. The three men said little but when they did speak, they were all business. Chris was the most somber of them all and seemed to take it personally that Josiah had been taken by Angelus. Buffy could not imagine why he would think that way when it was mere chance that allowed the abduction.
Vin Tanner seemed to be able to find tracks in the most obscure places, in a broken branch, in the groove of dirt which somehow translated to him as more than just irregularities in the ground but a vague path that they could follow. She marveled at his ability to track at night but apparently prior to his arrival in Four Corners, Vin had tracked buffalo and that made him quite adept at nocturnal hunting. If there were time, she would have asked him to teach her some of what he knew because it would have been a very useful skill for a slayer to have.
For some reason, Spike seemed somewhat agitated as well. It was hard enough riding double on horseback with him and trying not to get lost in how his closeness next to her but he was unusually tense which somewhat surprised her, not to mention unusually determined to find the preacher. Buffy could not imagine why that would be the case because she could think of no less likely person for Spike to befriend than a man of the cloth. Of course, even as she thought that, she was reminded of the fact that it was as unlikely as a vampire falling for a slayer.
"I can smell blood," Spike remarked as they paused briefly in their journey for Vin to seek out more tracks. "They were here."
"There's a little of it on the ground," Vin sniffed the dirt in his hand. "The horses slowed down about here, probably needed the rest after hard riding." The tracker guessed.
"What's around here?" Chris asked, looking around the place with its tall trees framing the trail they were taking.
"Not much," Vin answered. "A couple of homestead, scattered around but that's about it."
"Angelus wouldn't go to far," Spike responded. "He'd have to get where he was going before daylight and he'd want to talk to the preacher in a hurry."
"You mean torture him," Buffy blurted out, remembering what Angelus had did to Giles once in his efforts to learn the secrets of Acathla's awakening.
The four men tensed and Spike gave Buffy a dark look that warned her against being so frank. The preacher meant a great deal to them and they did not need to be reminded what the stakes were if they did not find him.
"Josiah won't talk," Chris said firmly.
"Are you sure?" Buffy had to ask even if he did not wish to face the possibility.
Chris stared at her sharply. "Yeah I'm sure," he retorted. "Josiah's tough. Unfortunately, he's also got one hell of a death wish."
"Excuse me?" Her eyes widened, thinking she had heard wrong for a moment.
Chris did not respond and simply walked back to his horse, leaving Vin to do the honors. JD seemed just as uncomfortable about answering because he did not understand enough to explain it.
"He's calls it the hearing the crows," Vin sighed before answering them. "Ever since we met him, he has this strange idea that he's time had come, that the crows were gonna come for him. He ain't been so bad since we got together but he's more than ready to die. If Angelus tortures him, Josiah would die before saying anything."
"Makes sense," Spike nodded in understanding as Vin and JD turned back to mount their horses to begin riding again.
"It does?" Buffy looked at him because she could not see what birds had to do with death.
"In lots of cultures, its believed that crows come when someone is about to die," Spike explained. "It's a very old legend."
"Since when did you become knowledge guy?" She asked.
"Since I've been around about a hundred and twenty years longer than you?" He snorted. "In any case, it's not going to happen. I'm not going to let the preacher die, no way."
"Not that I'm not impressed by this sudden show of compassion Spike," Buffy retorted skeptically as he helped her into the saddle again. She could not quite get use to riding an animal to get from one place to another yet. "But when did you decide to join the human race?"
"I didn't," the vampire hissed with annoyance. "But the preacher was decent to me. Not many people especially men of the cloth would give a vampire the time of day. So I don't want him hurt just because of some mess than came about because of me."
"That's not going to happen," Chris said firmly, touched by Spike's words and glad to know that something more than duty motivated the vampire's desire to help them find Josiah. He considered the situation carefully and tried to outthink his enemy. Vin's clues were leading them in the right direction but Chris feared that it was still taking too much time. "Vin, what homesteads are around here?"
"Cal Anderson's place isn't too far from here," Vin ran off the names in his mind to the best of his recollection.
"No, that wouldn't work," Chris shook his head. "Cal has a dozen men working for him on his spread and a family. If they tried for a place like that, you can count on at least one person making it out a live to warn us. I get the impression that Angelus wouldn't want any fuss."
"You're right," Spike agreed. "Knowing my sire like I do, he'd want to keep it on the quiet."
"What else is around here?" Chris inquired. Vin patrolled more than any of the seven because the tracker felt the bustle of town too much for him. Vin preferred wide open spaces and was known to take off for days at a time just so he could enjoy the quiet existence he had lived before making Four Corners his home.
"Patterson's place is at least two hours away," Vin added.
"Too far," Spike immediately discounted it. "He wouldn't take the risk."
"There's the Landers," Vin suggested and then his expression became grave.
"What is it?" JD and Chris caught the expression in his eyes.
"The Landers place is small," Vin said softly, "there's only the four of them. Mr. and Mrs. Landers and their two children."
"That'll be it then," Spike said firmly. "If I know Angelus, he would have checked out the area before he needed the place. Bastard's very thorough that way."
"How far is their spread from here?" Chris asked tautly, aware, as all of them were that the Landers were most likely already dead.
"About an hour in that direction," Vin nodded towards the west.
"I say we take the gamble and try for it," Buffy suggested. She thought of that entire family, allowing Angelus and the others into their house, probably thinking it was an act of kindness, unaware that it was probably sealing their doom. Her blood filled with anger and wondered how many others there had been since their arrival in Four Corners. They should not be dead! If it were not for that damn demon, they would not be.
"If it means finding Josiah, what the hell." JD agreed with the young woman who gave him a little smile for his show of support.
"Let's get going," Chris declared. "Don't want to lose any more people than we already have over these damn things."
The screaming hurt his throat but he could not help it.
It was the only way he could keep himself from telling them what they wanted to know. The pain was intense, it swallowed him whole and Josiah wanted only for it to stop. He could feel the blood running down his chest, could feel the blisters on his skin where the poker from the fire had seared his skin, branding him for his inevitable death. His fingernails were broken from digging into the armrest of the chair he was now bound to endure his torture. Not that the fingers they were attached to were of any use either, they too were broken, having been splintered apart by Angelus in the opening act of his torture session. His face felt warm but it was no longer the heat of the open fire warming it, it was hot and flushed because he was in agony.
He swallowed thickly and found that he had no saliva to soothe his sore throat. He wanted to gag but he would spare himself that indignity after letting them hear him scream. The stench of burning flesh, of his burning flesh, filled the air and taunted him with nausea. Josiah knew that he was hurt badly. The vampire Angelus had tried to be subtle at first with his fingers but had soon moved on to more brutal tactics, the fire being the most recent of his suffering. At some point, impatience had driven Angelus to tear through his skin with razor sharp nails and he knew that the slashes across his abdomen were serious cuts for they did not seem to stop the bleeding. Angelus had made him scream with ease but could not make him talk.
His father had always told him he was a stubborn creature that would be bound for hell if he did not learn compliance and obedience. He wondered if Angelus would find it amusing to know that Josiah's father had not been that different from his own. Like Angelus, Josiah had learnt in his own time and way that the good book was a matter of interpretation and both their fathers had got it all wrong. Josiah felt grateful that he was blessed with stubborness because ironically, that quality was keeping him from becoming a creature of hell.
"You're a tough one preacher," Angelus spoke again, appearing almost as weary by all this as he.
"Maybe he needs to reflect," Darla sauntered over to him. "Perhaps he needs to see things from a different perspective." She reached for his swollen jaw and smiled at him. "You are a strong man, preacher, both in spirit and in body. This does not have to be so brutal, it could even be quite pleasurable."
She lowered her lips to his and took his mouth in a seductive kiss that was more invasive than it was exploratory. Josiah found himself responding a little because despite the coolness of her kiss, there was much passion in it. He wondered how many men had doomed themselves because of their weakness to the power of those lips and the illusion of warmth that it seemed to generate. He wondered if Angelus had been lost that way.
"No," Josiah wrenched himself away from her. "I don't mind dying," he said through his bleeding and cracked lips. "I do mind damning myself to hell."
Darla's seductive mask changed into an expression of rage to which she expressed by striking him across the face, tearing three deep gashes across his cheek. "Kill him!" She snarled. "We're not going to get anything from him."
"Leave him to me for awhile," William said confidently.
"Leave him to you?" Angelus looked at the third vampire in the room with blatant skepticism. "Spike my boy, you're even less subtle than I am. What makes you think you can make him talk?"
"You're not having any bloody luck are you?" The younger vampire said snidely. "Let me have a go. What's the worst that could happen?"
"Not much I suppose," Darla fumed, still smarting from being rejected by a mere human. "I doubt you'd fare any better."
"I suppose there is no harm in it is there?" Angelus looked down upon his lover and caressed her shoulder in an effort to soothe her bruised ego after Josiah's refusal to submit to her charm. "Alright then Spike, see what you can do with him."
"I'll make him dance to a little tune by the time I'm done with him," William said cockily as his older companions left the room for the time being. William watched them go as Josiah contemplated what fresh hell he was about to face at the hands of this younger, more brutal version of the vampire he had come to know.
William waited until after Darla and Angelus had left the room before he locked the door behind them. Josiah watched the vampire whom he would one day know as Spike and noted that time had done very little to change their mannerism. William moved with the same predatory confidence that Spike did and his hair was a honey blond as opposed to the unnatural white gold that the future version favored. He was dressed in suit instead of being entirely in black although he had discarded the suit coat. He pulled up the chair that Angelus had previously occupied and sat the wrong way on it as he faced Josiah.
"Fact is I couldn't care less about why there's another version of me here," William declared.
Josiah did not speak but was curious as to what he did care about.
"There's strange magic going on here and I don't like it, don't even want to go messing about with it to tell you the truth."
"What do you want?" Josiah asked wearily, wishing he would just get on with it. Conversation was almost as exhausting as the torture, if not more. Conversation required him to think and Josiah did not wish to do that.
"I want to leave here," William stated. "I don't like it much and it's playing havoc with Dru. The magic hurts her. I don't want to see her in pain."
Josiah honestly believed the sincerity that William had in his voice when he spoke about the vampire female Drusilla. As he did, Josiah could see that the same deep affection in his eyes that Spike had held for Buffy. Spike, William, whatever he was, must have been a contradiction. He was something that could not possibly be but was nonetheless. What was it that allowed him to feel the way he did? That allowed him to transcend the demon impulses within him to feel so much for another being?
"I can't make that happen." Josiah replied.
"No you can't," William nodded in agreement. "But you can give me the slayer."
The preacher's eyes widened.
"If I get the slayer, I can convince Angelus to leave. Dru had a vision tonight and it scared the hell out of Angelus. He thinks I didn't notice how spooked he was but I did. He's bloody terrified. If I can kill this slayer, then whatever Dru saw will come undone and Angelus will be able to leave this place."
"I can't give you the slayer," Josiah responded.
"No," William conceded that. "But you can tell me where she'll be. Give me that and I'll let you go. I'm not like Angelus, I don't particularly give a bleeding stuff if you're a preacher or not. If you ask me, I think he's got some parental issues that have followed him from his human life."
"You'll let me go?" Josiah stared at him skeptically.
"I'm a vampire of my word," William stated.
"That's not very reassuring," Josiah said weakly.
"Probably not," William could not blame him for his skepticism. "But that's all you got."
"I have no reason to trust you," Josiah swallowed, something of a plan forming in his mind. It was in all honesty, a long shot but he had to try. The alternative was to remain here and be killed anyway. If given a choice, Josiah would rather die trying for freedom then doing nothing. "You could get what you want and kill me anyway and I doubt that Angelus would allow you to follow through with your end of the bargain of letting me go."
"Angelus doesn't scare me." William retorted somewhat offended by Josiah's suggestion that he needed Angelus' approval to do anything.
"You can't offer me what you don't have," Josiah replied before looking away, appearing convinced that William was in no position to help him. To a certain extent, he did not think this gamble was going to work but Josiah had no choice but to try.
"I can do whatever I bloody want," William stated, properly annoyed by the fact that Josiah thought him to be weaker and beholding to Angelus. "Look," he reached for the ropes binding Josiah's hands. "I can free you."
Within a few seconds both of Josiah's hands were free but it would take more than that for Josiah's freedom to come to him. He was not so delirious with pain to not realize that. Sucking a deep breath, feigning relief and compliance, he raised his eyes to the vampire who was looking down at him with a smug expression, gloating over proving Josiah wrong, that he did have the power to free the preacher.
"I don't suppose I could have a drink of water?" Josiah looked up hopefully.
The vampire considered the request a moment and then retreated to the far corner of the room and poured Josiah a drink from a jug of water that had been left there by the previous owners of the home. He brought the cup to Josiah who raised it to his lips.
"Now preacher," William stated, turning his back on the man as he slaked his thirst. "Give me the slayer or I'll kill you myself."
Josiah wasted no time the moment William's gaze had moved away and offered a silent pray to his God for favor just once more. His hand moved quickly, making the sign he had not made in too long but would make all the difference if his faith still held and as far as Josiah knew this entire situation had only served to make it more iron clad that it had ever been. William noticed the movement but not what Josiah had done, swinging around suspiciously to face the preacher once more.
"What..." he started to say when he realized that Josiah was in the same position he had left him, holding his cup of water and quenching his thirst. Upon realizing that nothing had changed, William's impatience grew short.
"Enough of this," William strode purposefully towards Josiah, preparing to resort to more physical methods of acquiring his information when suddenly Josiah stood up and flung the contents of the cup into the vampire's face.
William's scream followed Josiah's desperate lunge through the window. The preacher did not care about the damage he would do to himself, interested only in escape. Wood and glass shattered as he passed through the opening into the cool night air, his whole body screaming in protest from the exertion. Josiah did not look behind him to see what had happened to William, knowing only that the drink he had blessed and had turned into holy water was enough to do enough damage to the vampire. Josiah did not know where he was but he knew that his life depended on staying free and in the open until dawn. That was some hours away and the scent of blood would make him easy to track. Unfortunately, he had little choice but to run.
Every step sent a fresh wave of pain through him but Josiah did not look behind as he ran even though he heard more glass breaking in the distance as he left the house behind him. It was not long before he heard William's enraged cry.
"Preacher!!! I am going to tear your bloody heart out!"
Josiah did not doubt him for one instant.
"Stop!" Spike shouted as they rode towards the Landers homestead.
Four horses came to a sudden stop, with Buffy clinging on tighter to Spike at the abrupt halt. Chris immediately turned to the vampire wanting to know why they were stopping especially when time was so crucial. The gunslinger was fighting his worst fears that the preacher might have already died and any delay in reaching Josiah did not at all sit well with him. Especially when one remembered that death was the not the worst thing that could happen to Josiah tonight.
"What is it?" Chris demanded of Spike.
"Blood," Spike said automatically, looking around the stretch of woods and terrain before him. "I smell blood."
"You said that already," Chris pointed out impatiently.
"I mean a lot of it cowboy," Spike stared at him shortly, not noticing the annoyance that crossed Chris' face at being called that. "Somewhere close by. The wind's carrying it to me."
"Someone's bleeding," Buffy stated, understanding what the vampire was reaching at. "Human?" She looked at him.
Spike dismounted his animal and helped Buffy out of the saddle. When she was on the ground, he started walking away from the group. The scent of blood was strong and it was texture and salt were unmistakable. After more than a century of breathing it in, there was no mistaking the familiarity of its assault upon his senses.
"Its human and its close," Spike started to follow the scent, the wind was carrying it to him.
"Spike are you sure about this?" Buffy asked uncertainly as she followed him closely. It took less than a second for Chris, Vin and JD to dismount and hurry after them.
"No I'm not," Spike said honestly. "It could be any other human in the area bleeding like a stuck pig. In either case, I don't think you want to be leaving them on their own out here do you, with vampires about? It would be like ringing the dinner bell."
"Could you put that another way?" Buffy retorted when she saw the three men next to her stiffen in reaction.
"Sorry," Spike glanced over his shoulder in what passed for apologetic where he was concerned. "You know what I mean don't you tracker?"
"Yeah," Vin nodded, understanding perfectly well what the vampire was referring to. He had hunted enough animals in his time to understand the analogy, although he did not like to think of Josiah in that same way. "I know what you're talking about."
"Can you tell how far away he is?" JD inquired, letting his eyes travel across the landscape and through the woods, trying to see this person whom both hoped and feared might be Josiah.
"Afraid not," Spike shook his head in response but he was moving faster, following its path. He could almost feel the fear breathing down his neck and felt relished by the familiar scent of prey. It had been so long. Now that the chip was gone, he could bask in the freedom to feed if he so desired it. All his instincts seemed freed, all the desires he had been suppressing for so long. He had not realized he was running now, that his feet was carrying him forward with surprising speed that the others were running at full speed to catch up with him.
"Spike!" He heard Buffy call but Spike did not answer. The scent of blood was so strong, he could almost taste it. He wanted to taste it. And for the first time in so long, he could taste it if he wanted to. He could even kill. The knowledge that he was freed of that damned chip impacted on him for the first time since all this began. He had wanted it gone for so long but with Buffy's absence from his life, he had not given it much thought but he was free, truly free for the first time in almost two years. He could do whatever he wished and not be preyed by conscience or some foolish hope that a slayer might someday love a vampire.
He was almost euphoric with the realization until suddenly he heard a rustle in the bushes before him and looked up just in time to see a body lunging through the foliage straight into him. Both of them toppled over upon collision, with Spike recovering a good deal faster than the other. The vampire got to his feet quickly, fully aware he had run into the person who was emanating that visceral scent of blood and fear. It was only when he looked more closely at the man lying on his back, to exhausted to move, with pain etched in his face as markedly as blood was over the rest of his body, did Spike recognize it to be Josiah.
"Oh hell," Spike sunk to his knees as he stared at the wounds on the preacher's body. He had thought he looked bad after Glory had been done with him but this was worse. "You look bloody awful preacher."
Josiah blinked his swollen eyes and stared at the face he thought to be his pursuer at first but soon realized was not. "I've been better," he whispered through bloody lips.
"You just stay there preacher, helps coming," Spike swallowed, trying to ignore this hollowness in his gut as he called out for the others who had not been far behind him. "Over here!" He shouted into the night before looking down at Josiah once more. Without thinking, he pulled off his jacket and laid it over the fallen man's body, hoping that it would do some good. He had not lied when he said he cared about what happened to this man. Spike had not forgotten Josiah's kindness when they had first met .He saw the preacher, his body broken and bleeding, dying if he was not helped and found himself repulsed by all the feelings he had relished a short time ago. He had been enjoying all those feeling, thinking about all his freedoms now that the chip was gone, never for one moment considering that it was a friend's pain and dying that he was enjoying so immensely.
He shouldn't be feeling this way! He was fucking vampire for Christ's sake! He was not supposed to have conscience or consider humans any more than happy meals on legs as he had once coined the term of feeding. He should not be falling in love with slayers or guarding her life and her existence with his own! What was he? He was certainly no vampire! And after what he had been doing a short time ago, he was no human either. He was a freak who had become neither human nor vampire. Trapped in the limbo that existed between the two, he was doomed to be torn apart for what he was and if he was not careful, he was going to take everyone he cared for into the abyss as well. Just like this preacher and Buffy.
He almost destroyed her because he existed.
"This can't go on," Spike found himself saying almost in a daze, feeling his throat choke with emotion. "I can't go on like this any more."
Josiah looked at him weakly but did not speak.
"I have to stop this," he said in a small voice. "I have to end it here before it gets any worse."
"Spike," Josiah managed to say as he saw Spike retreating away from him. "Where are you going? William, he's still out there."
Spike absorbed the information readily enough, wondering if it was serendipity that made it William the one who had come after Josiah and coming to the conclusion that this would make things considerably easier. "See you around preacher," Spike bid the injured man goodbye, certain that Buffy and his friends would find him soon enough before hurrying down the path Josiah had taken to reach him.
"Josiah!" Chris exclaimed when they finally reach the spot where the preacher lay. Josiah was lying flat on his back, his body a multitude of bruises they could see even in the darkness. Chris skidded to the ground next to his injured comrade and felt his stomach knot in horror at the wounds on the man's body and face.
"Oh God," Buffy cried out, as she looked on at the kindly preacher whose calming influence reminded her of Joyce. "Is he alive?"
"Barely," Chris said as he felt Josiah for a pulse. Josiah was appeared unconscious and Chris was hardly surprised that the scent of blood had driven Spike a little crazy. There was more than enough of it spilled by the preacher to ensure that every predator in a ten-mile radius would be making a beeline straight for him had he lain here any longer. "Vin, help me."
Vin did not need to be told because the tracker was already assisting Josiah to his feet. It took both Chris and Vin to use every ounce of strength they had to lift Josiah to his feet. Josiah was all muscle and bulk and he stood almost as tall as Buck but nowhere as lean. He was a solidly built man that had always towered over them but somehow felt frail and insignificant now. That alone inspired the trio's utmost fury with Angelus who had obviously did this to him for information.
"Where's Spike?" JD asked, looking around for the vampire. "Did he just leave him?"
"I wouldn't be surprised," Buffy frowned. However, even as the thought crossed her mind, she knew she was being unfair, Spike had been just as worried as the others over this man's welfare. However, her natural instincts towards the vampire would not be denied.
"Buffy," Josiah started to speak.
"Easy there big fella," Chris responded automatically. "We're gonna get you out of there. Just take a breather."
"No!" Josiah hissed. "Buffy."
"Yes Josiah?" Buffy asked coming closer because she could hear his labored breath and did not wish him to exert himself any more than necessary if he insisted on talking.
"You have to go after him," Josiah grunted through his teeth purposefully. "You have to go now!"
"After Spike?" Buffy did not understand. "Spike can take care of himself. He doesn't need me."
"If you don't go," Josiah looked her in the eye. "He won't need anything ever again."
It did not take Spike to find him.
The vampire was so full of rage that he was screaming angry profanities at the preacher who had tricked into aiding his escape. The scent of blood brought him to Spike as easily as it had brought Spike to Josiah a short time ago. They met in a clearing between the trees, staring at each other through the moonlight, alone for the first time. William's face was wounded, he could see the flesh burnt off in places. Spike was reminded of how he had looked after Buffy had toppled a church on top of him during one of their battles when he was something to be reckoned with, not this pathetic shadow of a vampire. William's injury looked new however and without knowing the details, Spike realized that Josiah had somehow inflicted this upon the vampire.
"You again!" William hissed, his injuries hidden by the vampire visage he had taken upon sighting Spike. "Where is he? Where's that bloody bastard of a priest!"
"Where you can't get at him," Spike retorted almost wearily. He wanted this over and done with. He wanted it all over. He wanted to be finished. "Was all that your handiwork?"
"No that was Angelus," William hissed as they began to circle each other, preparing themselves for the battle they knew was coming since they laid eyes upon each other. "I'm going to do worse."
"You're going to do nothing," Spike replied shortly. "Everything that you should do, you're not going to. I'm ending it here and now."
"So you are me then?" William taunted, not really listening only wanting to fight.
"Yeah I am you and I suppose you should know that you had a bloody good run as vampires go, a hundred and fifty years all up human and demon. You had some good times, you made a name for yourself and you stuck with Dru for along time but that was my past and the future you're not going to see. I'm finishing us both now." Spike said softly.
William did not listen because he could not possibly understand and he attacked first. Spike sidestepped him easily, slamming an elbow into the small of his back as he dodged the initial attack. William staggered forward but Spike caught up with him easily enough and threw a kick into the same spot, this time sending him all the way to the ground. The younger vampire landed heavily on his knees, a groan of pain escaping him as Spike slid his arm around his throat and dragged him to his feet again. William clawed at him as Spike held him firm in his grip. This was almost too easy. The fighting techniques Spike had learnt to battle the Slayer he would encounter in China was almost unknown in this day and age especially to William who was still employing Queensbury Rules and did not stand a chance.
"Sorry mate," Spike whispered as he pulled out the stake he had tucked in his belt when he left Josiah. "This is for the best. Believe me."
William saw the wooden stake and began to struggle harder, desperately trying to free himself from Spike's deadly grip. Spike could not stand to prolong this ugly affair and brought down the stake towards his younger version's heart. Spike closed his eyes, preparing to disappear when the point reached William's heart, hoping that non-existence would be quick and painless as a vampire's death should be.
It did not happen.
Something caught his wrist and kept it from making that final journey through flesh. Spike opened his eyes and found Buffy staring at him, her eyes stricken with shock and horror.
"What are you doing?" She demanded.
"Let it go Slayer," Spike swallowed, cursing the fact that she was here. "Its better for both of us this way. If I'm gone, none of this would have happened. You wouldn't have to worry about getting wiped out of existence."
"You think this is an answer?" She cried out and slammed her fist into his face, forcing him to release his hold of William. The younger vampire stared at them both in confusion, clearly shaken at how close he had come to dying.
"Get out of here!" Buffy hissed angrily. "Get out of here before I finish what he almost did!"
William stared at Buffy; he was injured and not ready to face another version of himself and a slayer as well, not alone anyway. There would be another time but not today. "Later." He hissed menacingly and ran off into the darkness leaving Buffy and Spike alone.
Spike was on his knees, still holding the stake in his hand when Buffy turned to him.
"Why did you do that?" He asked dejectedly.
"Why did I do that?" Buffy could not believe he was asking the question. "You were going to kill him!"
"I know!" He shouted. "That was the plan, luv!"
"You were going to kill yourself!" She glared at him, wondering how he could even begin to contemplate suicide.
"So bloody what?" He stared back at her. "What's it to you if I did? If I had killed myself then all this would be over. The preacher wouldn't be lying back there with his guts almost torn out and you wouldn't have to worry about me killing your great, great grandpa!"
Buffy felt her mind overloaded with disbelief. "You think I want that? You think I want you to die?"
"Why not?" Spike glared at her. "What is there for me? Even if this all works itself out, there's nothing for me back in the future! I'll still be this ridiculous joke trying to cling on to good old days when he used to the Big Bad instead of this neutered animal that nobody wants around! You especially! Damn you Slayer! Why did you have to change the rules?"
"What rules?" She exclaimed in bewilderment. Why did he make things so difficult? "What are you talking about!"
"When you came back," he looked at her with eyes glistening with moisture. "I thought I would die from how happy I was to see you alive. I know you didn't love me, I accepted that because seeing you breathing and walking was like a dream. If I couldn't have you, knowing you were alive was enough. But then you changed the rules, you touched me and we made love. How am I suppose to go back to what it was after that! How am I supposed to be around you knowing that I'm just bloody convenient! I love you. I love you in every way that a man can love a woman but I want to be more than just a shag when you have an itch to scratch!"
"Spike it's not like that!" Buffy tried to explain but could not say very much in her defense. It had been just like that and no matter how much she tried to deny it, she could not make it any less true. She had treated him badly, worse in fact than Parker had ever treated her. At least he had not humiliated her the next day with the unkind words Buffy had delivered to Spike that morning.
"Of course not," Spike replied. "Its just convenient!"
"Spike stop it," Buffy felt herself becoming angry. "We got more important things to deal with."
"You can do them without me," Spike responded. "I'm staying right here."
"What do you mean?" Buffy stared at him before realizing what he was saying.
"I'm going to see the sun rise." His gaze moved past her towards the horizon.
"Spike get up!" She pulled him to his feet. "You can't do this! I won't let you! I won't have you kill yourself for me!"
"I'm not doing it for you!" He shoved her away. "I'm doing it for me! I can't bloody well go on this way Slayer. I can't! It's becoming too hard!"
Tears were running down his pale skin and as she saw him in his misery, she found her own eyes filling with tears because she had driven him to this. Ever since she had returned from the dead, Spike had been there for her. He had helped her through the worst of returning to her life and she had felt drawn to him because he made the emptiness inside her go away. She had used him to feel without any thought as to how it would effect him. When she had made love to him, she had felt something she had never experienced before, an insatiable need she could not quench and she had drunk him over and over that night. In the morning, she had been ashamed that she had succumbed to lust and told herself that he was a demon and it did not matter what he felt or how she treated him.
"Spike, I'm sorry," she whispered. "I'm so sorry. I didn't understand."
He was surprised by the admission because it was the first time she had shown anything resembling real human feeling towards him, other than when he was required to make her feel whole like the night in that crumbling building. However it was not enough. "It doesn't matter Slayer," he dropped to his knees again. "Its over. I'm finished."
"No!" She shouted angrily, scrambling to him. "I don't know how I feel about you!" She finally confessed as if the words were wrenched from the depths of her. "I don't know if I will ever love you the way you love me but if you do this, we'll never know!"
"Please, let me go," he met her gaze. "I can't stay and wait for you and if you never come around, I'll still have to watch you die and I can't bear that again."
Buffy thought hard. She did not know what to say that could make him want to go on. She felt even worse because she had wanted to die once and his were the only words that had made her choose life. Why could she not do the same for him? How is that he ended being the more caring one in what passed for their relationship? Finally it came to her, what she had to say and it was the only thing she could think of saying because he had spoken it once to her once. She hoped it had the same effect upon him.
"Life's not bliss, its just this," she reached for his cheek so that he would face her and started singing softly. "It's living. You've got to go on living, so one of us is living."
Spike blinked and heard the words he had once sung to her seep into him. Sure, it did not have the fanfare created by a musical inducing demon but he could see that she was sincere and determined that he lived and that gave him something he had not felt in too long.
Hope.
"Please Spike," Buffy spoke from the heart this time, not using words that belonged to him. "I don't know how I feel about you but you do fill up a space inside of me and I don't want that to end. Maybe we'll never be more than we are but I do care, perhaps not in the way you want but someday, it could be more. I just need time."
"Time," he snorted and rose to his feet, taking a deep breath. "I've got lots of it."
"Not if the sun comes up," she pointed out with a smile.
"Alright," he conceded defeat. As if he had ever had any chance of defeating her. It was no different than any of their battles. She always won. "Point taken," he sighed. "Let's get under the shade."
"Yeah, let's do that," Buffy smiled, hiding just how relieved she was that she had not lost him.
Maybe someday she would tell him.
Listening to them from his hiding place amongst the bushes, Angelus watched Buffy and Spike leave with a smile on his face.